Monday, December 08, 2008
Attention please
I think that's where my problem lies in. I need attention. Not just any attention from anyone. But attention from a decent, handsome, young and caring chap. And perhaps since in my little universe now, there seems to be such a candidate, I have been yearning for his attention. It seems to play rather well at times, given that he has a caring and generous character and he is basically a hao-hao xian-sheng.
Argh. Ok I wouldn't deny the fact that I like him. I am fond of him. His presence in office makes me a little excited. Noooooo I can't allow that to happen. I can't develop feelings for someone who doesn't share the same faith. This frustrates me, but in the long-run... think LONG-RUN, it is important. Short-term feelings now must not be acknowledged. Yet, I still find myself wanting his attention and loving it. I'm sorry Lord... I am so weak in my emotions. But there's just heaps of nice guys out there who aren't believers. What do I do??? Keep rejecting them?
If I am to settle down, Lord you must provide me the one whom you have prepared. I always wonder why the guys outside are so much more normal than the guys in the churchlife...
Enough of hah-hao xian-sheng. I'll try my best to just see him as a colleague and friend. Any nice-ness or jokes I shall take it as just being him. Even if it seems he's being really nice or sweet to me, I must remember it's all out of his goodwill and kindness. NOTHING ELSE.
Sigh. I'm such a love-fool.
Argh. Ok I wouldn't deny the fact that I like him. I am fond of him. His presence in office makes me a little excited. Noooooo I can't allow that to happen. I can't develop feelings for someone who doesn't share the same faith. This frustrates me, but in the long-run... think LONG-RUN, it is important. Short-term feelings now must not be acknowledged. Yet, I still find myself wanting his attention and loving it. I'm sorry Lord... I am so weak in my emotions. But there's just heaps of nice guys out there who aren't believers. What do I do??? Keep rejecting them?
If I am to settle down, Lord you must provide me the one whom you have prepared. I always wonder why the guys outside are so much more normal than the guys in the churchlife...
Enough of hah-hao xian-sheng. I'll try my best to just see him as a colleague and friend. Any nice-ness or jokes I shall take it as just being him. Even if it seems he's being really nice or sweet to me, I must remember it's all out of his goodwill and kindness. NOTHING ELSE.
Sigh. I'm such a love-fool.
Saturday, December 06, 2008
One and a half years later...
Thereabouts... since the last post. Yup, this blog has been preeetty inactive I must say.
Many things have happened since. For starters, I've landed myself a job as a planner - not wedding, party, financial, event, etc... planner, but a town planner. So it's been 15 months into the job and I can't say I'm loving or hating it. But it had been a journey to get to where I am now.
Fast-forwarding the missing stories in the past 1.5 years, I'm now in a lil' situation which I find myself rather stuck in. How does one handle office romance? Now wait, I'm not saying there's any on my part, but sigh... it sucks when heartstrings are being tugged at. Shan't say more lest there's nothing much to expand on. For now, it's just wishful thinking on my part and very very silly me making a fuss out of nothing.
Many things have happened since. For starters, I've landed myself a job as a planner - not wedding, party, financial, event, etc... planner, but a town planner. So it's been 15 months into the job and I can't say I'm loving or hating it. But it had been a journey to get to where I am now.
Fast-forwarding the missing stories in the past 1.5 years, I'm now in a lil' situation which I find myself rather stuck in. How does one handle office romance? Now wait, I'm not saying there's any on my part, but sigh... it sucks when heartstrings are being tugged at. Shan't say more lest there's nothing much to expand on. For now, it's just wishful thinking on my part and very very silly me making a fuss out of nothing.
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