Thursday, April 14, 2005
Speak of the devil...
... cos right after the previous blog entry, i find out something about something from the past which disturbed me. Initially at least. Felt like i couldn't believe it. Wasn't in my consciousness, though i had some inkling of it already. Didn't expect that it was really true and real. But guess it's a good sign. Life does go on. I'm the pot that called the kettle black. Yum. Taste of my own "medicine".
Well... LET GO! Yes, I am. Just that there are some rope burns as i slowly release the cord from the past... And i must be so so dumb. To feed myself with nostalgia & unwanted guilt & feeling so apologetic when everything's already all over. And the past has now renewed itself pretty well and i shld be glad for that. But i still feel wierd. ARGH.
Now as I'm stuck in the GIS lab, 5 mins before 9pm, i feel as if i dun want to go home. Resisting the urge to call/sms pple. Know i have to finish my Europe paper soon. My last formal academic piece of work in NUS, perhaps forever. Ah yes, nostalgia have we? Sigh. I've enough of nostalgia. Though i really hope i dun harden up, but not an overdose of it please.
Eyes are drying up. Don't feel like moving at all.
Well... LET GO! Yes, I am. Just that there are some rope burns as i slowly release the cord from the past... And i must be so so dumb. To feed myself with nostalgia & unwanted guilt & feeling so apologetic when everything's already all over. And the past has now renewed itself pretty well and i shld be glad for that. But i still feel wierd. ARGH.
Now as I'm stuck in the GIS lab, 5 mins before 9pm, i feel as if i dun want to go home. Resisting the urge to call/sms pple. Know i have to finish my Europe paper soon. My last formal academic piece of work in NUS, perhaps forever. Ah yes, nostalgia have we? Sigh. I've enough of nostalgia. Though i really hope i dun harden up, but not an overdose of it please.
Eyes are drying up. Don't feel like moving at all.
// posted by superlambanana @ 8:51 PM 
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nostalgia is like a bitter pill that you have to take in order to get well.
take it easy. look for other avenues to pour forth your energy. internalising will just get you trapped in that emotional box that you might be in.
flow out. like water. heh ;)
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take it easy. look for other avenues to pour forth your energy. internalising will just get you trapped in that emotional box that you might be in.
flow out. like water. heh ;)
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